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Sebak doe nyanyi lagu nieyh :(

i am now a dan fuckin SINGLE LADY :(((

it has already been a week since HE texted me through phone,,,

SOBSOB :'( sad i know right ??

dah arr block me from FACEBOOK,,,

am i that bad ?!?!

this is all because of that hell shit GUY !!!!!!!!

i'll never ever forgive him i swear to GOD i won't !!!!!!!

so know im planning to start to build my new life,,,

WITHOUT HIM BY MY SIDE :'( :'(

and guess what ?? i cried when ever i say that,,

it hurts more than i taught it will be....

Trying to be strong :/

Trying my best to change my life...

Trying to think more matured and try to think the best way to forget him :( 

(impossible i think)

Trying to not think about HIM during school hours

(also impossibble to achieve)

Trying my best to let HIM with someone else

(HURTS)

Trying my best to HATE him

(never will happened in a million year) 

I know that it's totally impossible for me to just forget him like that but i can't bear waiting anymore,, i need someone to love and care about me,,who can be there when im in the blues and will ne there when im sick,,, I NEED A GUY IN MY LIFE !!!!!!!

BUT WHY CAN'T THAT GUY BE THE ONE THAT I WANT :(

WHY IS WRONG WITH MY CHOICE ?

=="

 

HISTORY

I HATE YOU IDIOT !
U MAKE MY LIFE WITH HIM OVER !!
WHAT KIND A MAN ARE YOU HUH ?!
DON'T YOU HAVE ANY SENSE IN YOUR DAMN HELL BRAIN ?!
ARE U BORN WITHOUT ONE ?!!

EMO sebebantar bersme SYUHED ,,,
the story begins when i knew this one *KONONYE* baik guy in FB ,,
like always msty la rmai guys wants to get know miss perfect right <- THAT'S ME :) at first i taught he was a nice, innocent, not rude, caring guy but the hell fuckin truth is he was worst !!!!!!!!! ade ke patot dye ckp aq nie BOHSIA !!!!!! n he said that im a damn fuckin hell shit VIRGIN !!!!!!!!!!!! WTF u damn devil !!!!!!!!!! don't u have any idea who are you speaking to ??!!!!! aishhhhhh !!!!!!!!! dye ckp cam2 pon afta aq amok kat dye sal EKAL,, dye bajet dye agy tror than my BIGNOSE ,, ==" like duhh aq amok kan,, gile nak backup guy laen kan,,,, then secare tibe2 dye mencarut-carut ngn aq,,, aq pe agy an ,, mencarut sma trf arr gak ngn dye,,, aq mse tu dah ade kat skool so me and my mmb call la bdak SHIT uhh ,, mao arr gak denga sore SHIT tu kan ?? n guess what ???? he sounded just like a BAPOK !!!!!!!!!!! sore pak usop agy macho kot !!!!!!!!! like syesly it's true ==" the conclusin is im now HISTORY with ekal and im trying my best to get him back !!!!!!!!!!! no matter what it cost me i'll get him back !!!!

n , btw ,, he wished my besday although he was mad at me 

YEAHHH !

i still have the chance but,, that's the last messge from him,,,

:(

190310

YEAHHHH !! tarikh keramat sudah tiba ! time to go bacj to that hell house <- SSP* sumpah ta puas duk kat umah in just 1 week,,, ta rse pape pon ==" sape budak SSP tao arr perasan bile it's time to go ... :'( sad i know ,,,, da arr aq ta dapat na sweet2 ngn HUBBY aq,,, cehhsss ! aq text bkan nak reply itu pak cek,, but i still try to think positive,,, tamo pikir bnd bkn2 kat my BIGNOSE DEVIl,,, i trust him with all my heart and i know he will not do anything behind my back,, :) im gonna miss that big guy,,, im planning to not bring my phone along,, bkan tanak wak is just that nak contact ngn soe je pon kan ?? lao aq text ASBAND aq haram jadah nak reply,, lao reply tu sah2 dah thap bosan gile nak mati :/ THINK POSITIVE AIN !!!!!!!!!! HE MUST BE BUSY OR SOMETHING :) YEAHHH !

SSP HERE I COME :)
At least i can still shoot some basket while im there,, or should i complete my homeworks first >> ==" tough choice but i got to puck BASKET !!!!!!!!!!!!! S.C.U.D ! GO.FIGHT.WIN !!!!!!!!!!! ~RAWRRRR

-> that i won't do even if i'll die :p

-> now this is the type of homework i will die finishing :)
S.C.U.D !!! GO.FIGHT.WIN babeh <3

14 birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
YOU LEAVE IN A ZOO !
YOU LOOK LIKE A MONKEY !

AND YOU SMELL LIKE ONE TOO !!
OH YEAH !


it's my birthday,, actually is not yet to be my birthday but my family decided to do it earlier as im going back to SSP tomorrow night ,,,
pffttt ! -,-




THIS IS THE CAKE YAWW !

NOT THAT BIG NOR SMALL ,, JUST RIGHT :)



This girl is the first person to wish my birthday and she is SITI MUTIHAH BT ZAKARIA ! <3 MY BESTIE FROM GANU YAWW ! will always pray for u and love u beb :') thanks for evrything,,, to all that u've done to me ,, ur the bestest best friend anyone had ever wish for and im glad i knew u and became ur bestie :) sorry if i ever made u sad friend,, just remember that i'll always be with u although we're far apart,, our bond as a sister and a frind will never be loose ,,, u are friend till the end <3 love you la !!

-> isn't she just the cutest with that pink t-shirt on with the hose on her head,,, she's like an angel send from above <3

new looks

OHHHHHHHHMMAAAAAYYYYYYGOOSSSSSHHHH !!!
my hair is like short now thanks to my bro..
i forced him to cut my hair short :) i hate my hair, i mean my old hair,,, it's too long man...
so i decided to force my bro o cut it for me....
at first my parents were mad at me but i seem to ignore them and so they started to don't care...
wanna see my new look ???



WELL HERE IT IS :) NOT THAT CUTE DOWHH -,-

-> boleh la than kan ??? ade ala2 amoi jual sayor pon ade aq tengok -,-

-> comel gak sekupang xp

-> TEEHEE <3 that is all of my new hair,, cute huhh ?? -,-

love story

Ni 1 lg cter yg aku jmp msa tga2 belek home... hahahahaha.... cte ni mmg sdey bg aku... n aku harap cte ni bg pengajaran pada sesiapa pn... HARGAI DIA SEBELUM TERLAMBAT.... :) Name aku Amir.. Aku de sorg awek.. Sorg??? huhu.. Awek aku ni mmg lawa giler r!! Sbb die lawa tu r aku ngn membe2 aku berebut.. Nasib aku baik la, aku dpt jugak die....memandangkan aku ni pun kategori org yg handsome.. hahaha.. OOPS! lupe! Name awek aku ni Nadia.. Kitorg x same kampung tp satu sekolah.. Satu hari ni aku dpt twrn smbung blajar kt satu IPTA ni.. Awek aku pn dpt.. Alhamdulillah result SPM kitorg cemerlang walaupun aku pun x percaye boleh dpt 7A.. Hahaha.. Tp mmg giler r.. Walaupun kos yg ditawarkn same, tp aku terlambung kt utara n die lak kt Selatan.. Die ni kuat jeles tu jgn ckp laa.. hidup aku dia yg aturkan.. selama aku satu sekolah dulu, jgn hrp la aku nk kuwa ngn membe2 perempuan aku.. Jgnkn kuwa same, pndg pun x boleh.. Kdg2 aku rimas jugak ngn die.. T aku ckp byk ngn die, mau die marah2 then merajuk.. Benci tul aku.. Aku tau die sygggg sgt2 kt aku. Aku tau die mmg x lyn mane2 lelaki yg cube usyar line die.. Kdg2 aku bengang jugak if ade lelaki yg hntr2 msj kt die walaupun die x reply.. Tp sebenarnye aku ade sorokkan sumthing drp die.. Disebabkan kitorg pun da terpisah jauh, aku mule la nk test market kt utara ni.. Jahatkn? Aku rase bebas!!! Aku pn rase die mcm tu jgk kot.. Yelah, die kn lawa.. Msti r ramai jantan usyar die.. Disebabkan aku nk menutup perasaan prasangka yg buruk2 tu, aku mula r berkawan ngn ramai perempuan kat sini.. Setiap kali org tanye status aku, mesti aku jwb aku single.. Aku selalu kuwa ngn member2 perempuan aku kat sini.. Mmg lagak cm org single.. Aku selalu teringatkan die time aku tgh berfoya2.. Bile wktu mlm sebelum tidur, msti die yg call aku.. Aku? Kdg2 kot.. Tp aku syg sgt kt die.. Aku ckp kt die, membe2 aku kt sini semuanye jantan.. Die ckp die pun same.. Sebelum kitorg end call mst die cerita2 kenangan kami bersama.. Die selalu ckp, "kalau sy da x de baru awk leh gatal dgn perempuan lain".. Kdg2 aku mrh die sbb die ckp yg bukan2 walaupun hakikatnya aku mmg da menggatal da pun.. Kdg2 aku selalu jgk create pergaduhan ngn die.. byk kali die nangis time gaduh2 ngn aku.. pernah tu aku tertengking dia.. kesian die......... "SAYA SAYANG AWAK! SAYA NAK AWAK!" Tibe2 aku terkejut drp lamunan.. Rupa2nye member perempuan aku, Tiqah.. Aku pn dgn bangang aku terima.. Mase duit PTPTN kuwa, aku beli sebijik henpon lg. Satu henpon khas tok msj Nadia, satu g utk Tiqah.. Dlm tempoh aku belajar kt sini, mcm2 tipu aku wat.. Aku tipu dua2 perempuan tu.. Tp hati aku tetap sygkn Nadia.. Mungkin sbb jauh, perasaan tu kdg2 bercampur.. Tiqah pn mcm Nadia.. Sejak aku couple ngn minah ni, aku dah x kuwa ngn member2 perempuan lain.. semuanya kembali mcm mase aku ngan Nadia dulu.. Aku terasa bersalah sgt.. Tp dlm mase yg same aku just nk hilangkan perasaan bosan sorg2 kat sini.. "Kalau la Nadia tau.." Kdg2 aku terfikir nk berterus-terang.. Tp aku x berani.. Kalau dulu aku tidur pukul 1.30, sekarang ni pkul 3.30 kdg2 pkul 4.. Yelah sbb nk gayut dgn dua2.. Semua org x tahu siapa aku sebenarnya walaupun roomate aku sendiri.. Setiap kali aku balik kampung, Nadia x balik.. Yelah.. U dgn sekolah mane same.. Cuti lain2.. Cume ade sekali tu kitorg dpt cuti same2.. Cuti raye kn.. Time aku jumpa ngn Nadia, aku sorokkan henpon satu lg tu kat rumah.. Nadia makin lawa! Berseri2.. Mane2 lelaki tgok gerenti r cair ni.. Nadia ckp cinta die hanya utk aku.. Selama die berpisah dgn aku, die semakin rindu, semakin syg n cintakn aku.. Utk hilang rase camtu, die habiskan mase dgn belajar.. Kdg2 die ckp belajar smpai tau2 da mlm.. Die happy sbb hati aku masih x berubah utk dia sorang.. ERR! aku terasa bersalah sgt.. "Kalau sy da x de, baru awk leh gatal dgn perempuan len tau!" ckp die sambil tergelak2.. Perkataan tu da berjuta kali kot die sebut.. Aku tgok muke die yg lembut tu.. Die bersuara, kalau habis belajar, die nk aku ikat die sebagai tunang.. Pastu die nk kami kerja, kumpul duit byk2 n kahwin then sambung belajar lg.. Beria2 die menceritakan impian die kt aku... Permainan aku berlarutan sehingga sem yg ke 4... Pada satu hari ni aku g makan ngn Tiqah mcm biasa... Heboh kampus aku jd tuan rumah untuk satu pertandingan perbahasan antara IPTA. Kebetulan hari ni ulangtahun ke 3 aku ngan Nadia.. Mcm biase aku g mkn ngn Tiqah kt cafe.. Mase Tiqah tgh ambil lauk, aku terniat hati nk cek msj die.. Terhenti jantung aku, berlambak2 msj sorang jantan yg bersayang2 kt inbox dia.. Aku pn angin r.. Mase Tiqah duduk, aku soal2 dia smpai menangis minah tu.. Sebelum ni x terniat pulak aku nk cek.. Tiqah ckp die ttp sygkn aku.. Aku pun mula terfikirkn Nadia.. Tibe2 ade sekumpulan awek dtg kat meja aku time2 gini la pulak.. X lame pastu aku nmpk Nadia.. Aku menelan air liur.. Rupe2nye, Nadia ambil bahagian dalam pertandingan tu.. Bila Tiqah nmpk ramai2 awek tu dtg kt aku, pelik r die.. N dgn kuasa Allah, semua terbongkar pada saat tu.. N Tiqah sendiri mengaku yg dielah awek aku kt depan Nadia.. Aku tgok Nadia menangis.. Die x bercakap sepatah haram perkataan pun.. Cume die berikan aku sekotak hadiah ulangtahun kami sebelum dia tinggalkn aku.. Aku terus putuskan hubungan aku ngn Tiqah.. Mase aku balik hostel, puas aku call Nadia.. Aku hntr msj berlambak2 kt die.. die x reply pn... Aku sedar, die dah benci aku.. Rupanya Nadia masih menerima aku.. Aku happy sgt2.. Aku berjanji x nk kecewakn die lg.. 2 minggu kejadian itu berlalu.. Org2 sekeliling aku mula menjauhkan diri daripada aku.. Nk2 yg member2 perempuan aku la.. Aku dah x kesah da.. Aku dah berubah.. Aku cuma nk dapatkn keputusan yg cemerlang sampai time akhir sem nanti. Aku nk dptkn kerja baik2.. Apa2 pun aku nk ikat Nadia dulu.. Kdg2 aku berasa malu sgt kt Nadia nk2 bila teringatkn mak ayah dia.. Nasib baik die x pergi report kat mak n ayah dia.. hehe.. Dlm tgh syok2 berangan sambil membelek2 kemeja baru hadiah ulangtahun daripadanya mase hari kejadian tu, tibe2 aku dpt msj drpd member Nadia.. "Nadia eksiden!" Ermm.. Hati aku tibe2 jd x sedap.. Msj kedua drp member die smpai lg.. Terasa panas muka aku bile bace msj tu.. "Nadia da X DE.. Die kne langgar ngan kereta mase lintas jln.." Mcm org gila pas aku bace msj tu.. Aku ambil keputusan balik kejap kampung walaupun terpaksa ponteng kelas.. Aku rase kosong.. Kosong sgt.. Teringat gelak tawa die, teringat suara die, muke die yg lawa tu.. Aku menangis dlm bas.. Aku x peduli ngn org2 yg pndg aku.. Kali ni aku betul2 menyalahkan diri aku.. Semua kenangan aku ngan Nadia bermain dlm kepala aku.. Aku xmampu menahan perasaan sedih ni.. Berulang kali aku bace msj terakhir Nadia mlm td.. "Awk, sy nk tido.. Mcm biase, sy sygkn awk utk selamanye walaupun awk da lukekn ati sy, sy maafkn... Tp ingat! Kalau sy x de baru awk leh gatal ngn perempuan len tau! Hehe.. Nk mrh la tu.. Sy leb awk! Sweet dreamz.." Ya Allah! Kuatkn hatiku ni.. Semasa aku sampai, jenazahnya belum tiba lagi.. Ye.. Aku pun terus mencoretkan kisah ini.. Semoga menjadi pengajaran kt korang.. Air mata aku berguguran sepanjang mencoretkan kisah ni.. Tapi aku tau, Nadia x kn kembali da.. X de lg msj Nadia, panggilan Nadia.. X de dah ungkapan "kalau sy x de" tu dah.. Teman2.. Aku mintak sedekahkanlah fatihah utk nya.. Mungkin ada yg memperlekehkn kisah aku ni.. Tp bg aku, inilah kisah yg plg bermakna utk aku.. Utk selamanya aku menyayangi kau, Nurul Nadia bt Zainarruddin.. Mungkin kejap lagi jenazahnya tiba.. Aku nk bersiap2 utk beri penghormatan terakhir buat die yg aku sygi.. Sememangnya cinta die utk aku shgga akhir nafasnya... Aku mampu merelakan pemergiannya... Tabahkn hatiku Ya Allah.... -Al Fatihah.....



-> u guys , kalau u guys bace this story,,, u guys jgn ingat it's a joke...it's real ok.. it can happen to any one of you who are reading !
the moral are,,


-> be faithful to he/she who loves u
->don't date other people when ur still dating he/she
->u guys can gatal2 bile u guys single je


i will never ever do this thing to you beb ! i promise u <3 im so sorry for the past years,,, i know i've made a lot of mistakes and im so badly sorry for that..... i was so young to understand so please,,,, if i have to go forever i just want you to know that you are the only one that is in my heart and no one is able to take that away from me.... no one is more perfect for me,, ur the only guy that i see in my eyes and soul.... <3 MUHAMMAD HEYKAL HARIZ BIN ABDUL RAHMAN<3 <3 MR. BIGNOSE <3 <3 MA.DEVIL <3 <3 MACA <3 <2 PLAYER MALAYA <3 YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MAKE ME STAY ALIVE NOW AND FOREVER.. WITHOUT YOU IM NOTHING... WITHOUT U I'LL DIE BECAUSE U HAVE MY HEART AND IF U GO, MY HEART WILL FOLLOW YOU :')

yawnnn

yes that's right ! im so B.O.R.E.D bored ! i can't even watched boys ob]ver flowers right now <- old story i know ==" ...... i need him to accomponied me but noOoOo his not here to do so.. arghhhhh ! where are u when i really needed someone :'( u really know how to make a little girl cry do u MUHAMMAD HEYKAL HARIZ SON OF ABDUL RAHAMN !!!!!! <- i knew his dad name ! *winkwink here comes the sad face again :'( SOBSOB

WADEFAK ?!

Well u see that sign ? I AM NOT A BITCH !!!!!!!!!!!!
and just guess what kind of beast just say that directly to me through FB ?!
an unknown guy that i really don't want to know...
tHe story begins when i was chating with LUQMAN<- likethisguysomuch <3 , as i was saying , there's a guy <- asshole ! came poping out my chatbox and asked for my " THING " ( you know what i mean right ? )... and i say u thnik im a damn bitch u asshole freak ?! like which gril would let a stupid guy asked that directly to her right.. *A STUPID GIRL WITHOUT ANY SENSE I GUESS ,, then, that asshole just go away like a wind and posted something on my wall.... he said he wants to get it on with me and he said i was a virgin <- WADEFAK MAN !! i was like argghhhhhhhh ! ( mad ) just think a guy posting that kind of stupid thing on your wall.. what would it make u feel huhh ?! ashamed , irritating n balh, blah, blah..... lucky for me i have LUQMAN... he is the one who deleted the damn fucked post as i can't delete it by my self and i really don't know why ?? ==" any who im just glad he was there when i really need somebody to comfort me... but i was expecting HEYKAL to that role but he wasn't there... :'( SOBSOB , how sad is that .......... a girl with a HUNK but doesn't feels like having one... what ever it is i still love that BIGNOSE DEVIL of mine forever until my last breath <3

NOW THIS IS THE GUY WHO IS THERE WHEN I NEEDED COMPANY..
LUQMAN HAFIZ IS THE NAME <3

BACK WITH HIM

Yeah im back with him...
0_0 ,<- thats my happy face i guess... well im glad that went well.. I come clean with him about the past 2 years and his okay with that... ==" His a great guy i know... Never ever want to split up or anything... I asked him if he loves me as much as he love me before ( 3 years before ) and he said yes but i just have that I DON'T THINK HE MEANS IT I tried not to think bad things about him.. And one more thing I really thinks that he had change a little bit <- ( big man ) Trying to avoid the fact that his not the same BIGNOSE DEVIL.. :'( SOBSOB Sad but i'll take it in the bright side of view.. I got him for myself and i should be happy right ?? yeahhh !!! im happy !! :D <- HAPPY FACE COMING TROUGHHHHH ! Hope that my relation with him will stay this way forever ooopppss ! no !! I want it to be like this.. couple -> marriage -> 2 kids -> granchildren -> and DIE
TEEHEEEEE :)


AINKAL_NICECOUPLE@FOREVER.COM <3 MUHAMMAD HEYKAL HARIZ, would u take NUR AIN SYUHADA as ur wedded wife ? ekal : I DO ! well, will u NUR AIN SYUHADA take this fine man to be ur wedded husband ? me : LIKE DUHH ! i now pronounce u HUSBAND&WIFE.. here come's the best part ! u may kiss r bride !!!! MUAAAACCCHHHHHH ! ;) winkwink* SUCH BIG DREAMS FOR SUCH A SMALL KID LIKE ME

THAT IS HIM AND THAT IS ME :')

ARE WE JUST CUTE OR WHAT ;)

IT'S THE GROOM PEOPLE !
WHAT A HUNK *RAWRRR

WHO'S THAT CHICK ! :)
IT'S THE BRIDE YOU DUMBO !!
MAKE WAY PLEASE FOR THE COUPLE OF THE YEAR


WOOOOOOOOOTTT2 !!

I WANNA CHANGE

Why in the world can't i stop doing it !
everytime i went back home i will be doing the same thing..
i just can't stop it !!
oh god please do help me..
i don't want this action go to far from it's path..
let it be just a horrible dream....
but it won't go away !!!
i'll still doing it again and again <- *korean song i'm quiet scAREd about what will happen to me if i keep doing this THING.... im afraid that i won't be accptd to heaven.. i know that the thing that im doing is a sin but i just can't stop it !! it's not like i didn't try or anyting but i just had been influenced by my surroundings.. the people around me who makes me think and react this way... but really swear to ALLAH i want to change and stop doing what i supposed to not doing rigjt now... why can't HIM helped me in my matter ??? is it because of my skipped prayers.. but im also one oh HIS slaves right ?? i also has the right to change , but seriously why is it so hard ?!?! lately, my prayers are getting better than before thanks to my pals :) if it's not for them i would not be as ALIM like this <- *no tudung yet that covering thing on my head will take a while for me to adapapt it but i'll try :) btw, many say that i look much cuter in TUDUNG ==" no comments for that i suppose that's all i think.. i just hope i can change to be a new me.. i hope i can handle it and stop doing it :) ( let it just be me and HIM to knwo what the THING that im trying to stop doing )

Twilex -- Alex and Twitch hip hop

SO DAMN COOL !

Twilex -- Alex and Twitch hip hop

OMG !!
Alex and Twitch just make my body shaking like an ice blender baby !
just look at them go !
u rock man !

LANGKAWI

He went to Langkawi for his holiday ?? WADEFAK ! that's huge man...i wanted to go there too..but too bad my mom had to work..argghhh ! hate it when i come home with nothing to do..just me and my boring life in my room...but as long as i have my bro's lappy and my phone i guess my holiday is not half that bad...

yesterday i watched LINDAN<- *MACHO GUY beaten by LEE<- *CUTE GUY... besides that, i was also texting with my HUNK ! ( no need to tell the name ) he said he was as macho as LINDAN but i think he is more than that *TEEHEE... i said he was a maca selling roti canai by the road side just to cover my act..like really, i cant say directly in front of him that he is more macho than LINDAN right?? what will he think of me if i said it that way..talking bout how much my HUNK is more macho than LINDAN ..MAS won beating CHINA 21-18.. congrates LEE !! woot2! u are the best among the best :D

-> Is he cute ! his wearing yellow t-shirt just the same as my house's colour..
spirit of the high up topaz....

-> Wow ! and just look at those huge packs ! and there's all six of them...
i can be your girl anytime beb just say the words and im there
<3 but sadly ur playing for CHINA.. i only date MALAYSIANS so can only be my spare part if ur intrested.. *TEEHEE jk*

missing him

Why can't i forget bout him already?
why is it so hard for me just to leave without him?
is not that i can't is just that my heart is not ready to let him go for now..
i still need him in ma life <- what?? sincerly i can't leave without him by ma side but i have to try... i must accept that fact that his no longger mine.. he doesn't love me like he used to... it was my fault too to not love him back.. if i has a chance to turn time or go back to past i would probablly change the way i acted with him.... I chated with him earlier.. just for about 10 minutes i guess.. i really misses him... if he was to be my neighbor i would hang with him everyday ! HAHAAHHAAH ! i guess that won't happen right? i just can hope... i never stop hoping that one day he will be mine... cao his the best thing that ever be mine.. no guys have ever make me feel like woe... his like the sweet pills that im swallowing down in my mouth.. his just so perfect to be true beb ! is not a crime to wait for a someone u love right? HEHE... but still i'll try to see other guys... bt trust me.. no guys can make my heart beats fast he does... i bet it ! i know that he's the first and last love for me.. if i were to marry other guy i think i won't be happy... cos my half of my soul is with him and i just can't take it back from him.... pfffftttt ! 0,o

exam sucks

why can't i ever pass my exam like my other friends?!
this totally ruined my futre in becoming a doctor....
i can't even performed well for my english..
wadefak man !
i can't think straight right now..
curently at my hometown terengganu..
i was not like my old self when i step in my mom's car..
i was speechless...
i can't even look into her eyes on that moment..
i feel like crying every time i stared her face..
is like i've dissapointed her life...
i never meant to broke her heart on purpose, is just that i can't do it !
i admit that i was a fool to choose SSP for my primary school...
why can't i just stay here with my friends..
stupid me !
look what happened !
u ruined ur future..
end of story..
if i just accept that offer to that school my results won't be this bad..
i bet it;s true !
okay ! end of story here

i got 5B 2C and a damn E !
i never ever never ever failed in my exam !
the worst marks that i probablly get is a C..
( when i used to have a brain )
i adore one of my friend here..
she's a hoki palyer..
and she's not just an ordinary hoki player but she's the best center half SSP had ever had....
she got evrything in her hands...
SHE GOT THE BRAIN
SHE GOT THE POPULARITY
SHE GOT THE STAMINA
SHE GOT THAT EVRYTHING...
when will i be like her...
she's a sporty girl but still can performed well in her exam..
arrgghhhhh !
frustrated indeed :'(
just hoping that the next exam won't be as worst as my first exam..

True Friends by Hannah Montanna - Lyrics

ANAK TALAHA !

a.k.a

nurfarizatulsyazrin

a.k.a

perry

last year thap sombong gile nan aq dowh !

aq ingat nme dye last year pon sbb cite phineas n ferb pnye platypus uh :D

HAHA...

at least i know his her name kayh..

dye ta tao tros nme aq last year !

dye inagt pon bile aq wear baju man u aq y ad sign NUR AIN kt blkg..

babeng pny orang...

nie bdak nmpk je bsa cam lori tpiey stamina gile mantap dowh !

kalah aq ...

=="
( NOT )

just imagined 17 round non stop

WTF man !

aq 2 round pon mcm na maty...

:D

guess what?

HE she is my DORMY + CLASSMATE

so aq mmg sllu ar ngan ANAK UNCLE TALAHA uhh...

ha !

he she is also one of the famous HOKIans in SSP....

dye mane pe ea???

=="

center half kot..

aq mane agak je..

PIGEH MAMPOS arr pape pon y aq tao dye teror :)

orang ckp his her position is like woe man !

penad kot jdi dye...

aseh !

aq maen bb pwon jd wing je..

HEHE..

btw..

she's not have that bad...

he's she's quite MACHO in certain occation...

aq rse mmg all HOKIans was born MACHO arrr..

AWIEN pon MACHO...

aseh !

so the conclusion why im writing bout this babe in ma blog is because she's now one of my new bestie

:))

yeayy !

congrates ANAK TALAHA for making in the list of my top 10 bestie's !

<3>

<3>

<3>

<3>

SHE HAVE EVRYTHING THAT I EVER WANTED IN MY LIFE..

except for a boyfriend i guess..

nie budak mmg ANTI laki aq rse..

and aq agak jeles nan dye coz ade all of this....

=="

last but not least....

thanks for being my friend beb <3

this song is for u kayh..

HAHA..

ayatsaiatidakbolehpergi

True Friends by Hannah Montanna - Lyrics

PATAH HATI

adoy !

da arr dye uat cam2 tyme exam !

frust aq doh !

dye ckp mao clash coz SERABUT?
=="

pe yang serabut sanad kapel 2 aq pon xpaham...

aq usha wall dye boleh plak layan minah senget 2 !

GERAM thap CIPAN dorang maen cwit2 nan HUBBy aq !

phal dowh !

aq sepak kang mpos tros ko !

tao arr my hubby cute an...

=="

really misses him right now..

:'(

dye ckp mao trun ganu this march

OMG !

++ dye na tngok aq slim?

=="

cmne aq nl slim dowh 1

siket2 makn siket mkn..

mne ta gmok bhai ?!

aq paln mao DIET tapi ta menjadi lak my diet 

HEHE

tapi aq rse lao dye trun ganu pon bkan boleh DATE..

:(

sadissss btol idop aq nie...

hwahwahwa !