missing him

Why can't i forget bout him already?
why is it so hard for me just to leave without him?
is not that i can't is just that my heart is not ready to let him go for now..
i still need him in ma life <- what?? sincerly i can't leave without him by ma side but i have to try... i must accept that fact that his no longger mine.. he doesn't love me like he used to... it was my fault too to not love him back.. if i has a chance to turn time or go back to past i would probablly change the way i acted with him.... I chated with him earlier.. just for about 10 minutes i guess.. i really misses him... if he was to be my neighbor i would hang with him everyday ! HAHAAHHAAH ! i guess that won't happen right? i just can hope... i never stop hoping that one day he will be mine... cao his the best thing that ever be mine.. no guys have ever make me feel like woe... his like the sweet pills that im swallowing down in my mouth.. his just so perfect to be true beb ! is not a crime to wait for a someone u love right? HEHE... but still i'll try to see other guys... bt trust me.. no guys can make my heart beats fast he does... i bet it ! i know that he's the first and last love for me.. if i were to marry other guy i think i won't be happy... cos my half of my soul is with him and i just can't take it back from him.... pfffftttt ! 0,o