exam sucks

why can't i ever pass my exam like my other friends?!
this totally ruined my futre in becoming a doctor....
i can't even performed well for my english..
wadefak man !
i can't think straight right now..
curently at my hometown terengganu..
i was not like my old self when i step in my mom's car..
i was speechless...
i can't even look into her eyes on that moment..
i feel like crying every time i stared her face..
is like i've dissapointed her life...
i never meant to broke her heart on purpose, is just that i can't do it !
i admit that i was a fool to choose SSP for my primary school...
why can't i just stay here with my friends..
stupid me !
look what happened !
u ruined ur future..
end of story..
if i just accept that offer to that school my results won't be this bad..
i bet it;s true !
okay ! end of story here

i got 5B 2C and a damn E !
i never ever never ever failed in my exam !
the worst marks that i probablly get is a C..
( when i used to have a brain )
i adore one of my friend here..
she's a hoki palyer..
and she's not just an ordinary hoki player but she's the best center half SSP had ever had....
she got evrything in her hands...
SHE GOT THE BRAIN
SHE GOT THE POPULARITY
SHE GOT THE STAMINA
SHE GOT THAT EVRYTHING...
when will i be like her...
she's a sporty girl but still can performed well in her exam..
arrgghhhhh !
frustrated indeed :'(
just hoping that the next exam won't be as worst as my first exam..