I WANNA CHANGE

Why in the world can't i stop doing it !
everytime i went back home i will be doing the same thing..
i just can't stop it !!
oh god please do help me..
i don't want this action go to far from it's path..
let it be just a horrible dream....
but it won't go away !!!
i'll still doing it again and again <- *korean song i'm quiet scAREd about what will happen to me if i keep doing this THING.... im afraid that i won't be accptd to heaven.. i know that the thing that im doing is a sin but i just can't stop it !! it's not like i didn't try or anyting but i just had been influenced by my surroundings.. the people around me who makes me think and react this way... but really swear to ALLAH i want to change and stop doing what i supposed to not doing rigjt now... why can't HIM helped me in my matter ??? is it because of my skipped prayers.. but im also one oh HIS slaves right ?? i also has the right to change , but seriously why is it so hard ?!?! lately, my prayers are getting better than before thanks to my pals :) if it's not for them i would not be as ALIM like this <- *no tudung yet that covering thing on my head will take a while for me to adapapt it but i'll try :) btw, many say that i look much cuter in TUDUNG ==" no comments for that i suppose that's all i think.. i just hope i can change to be a new me.. i hope i can handle it and stop doing it :) ( let it just be me and HIM to knwo what the THING that im trying to stop doing )