NEW LIFE

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Sebak doe nyanyi lagu nieyh :(

i am now a dan fuckin SINGLE LADY :(((

it has already been a week since HE texted me through phone,,,

SOBSOB :'( sad i know right ??

dah arr block me from FACEBOOK,,,

am i that bad ?!?!

this is all because of that hell shit GUY !!!!!!!!

i'll never ever forgive him i swear to GOD i won't !!!!!!!

so know im planning to start to build my new life,,,

WITHOUT HIM BY MY SIDE :'( :'(

and guess what ?? i cried when ever i say that,,

it hurts more than i taught it will be....

Trying to be strong :/

Trying my best to change my life...

Trying to think more matured and try to think the best way to forget him :( 

(impossible i think)

Trying to not think about HIM during school hours

(also impossibble to achieve)

Trying my best to let HIM with someone else

(HURTS)

Trying my best to HATE him

(never will happened in a million year) 

I know that it's totally impossible for me to just forget him like that but i can't bear waiting anymore,, i need someone to love and care about me,,who can be there when im in the blues and will ne there when im sick,,, I NEED A GUY IN MY LIFE !!!!!!!

BUT WHY CAN'T THAT GUY BE THE ONE THAT I WANT :(

WHY IS WRONG WITH MY CHOICE ?

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